I’m love plants and start gardening and design garden since 13 on a very special place that is not suitable as garden which makes it more challenging. It gives me joy and peace, and I learn lot of thing. I also love drawing and design anything or even inventing, haha which not need for me to explain too much here.
I’m actually want to be a environmental engineering but I not good on math, or landscape architect, forestry but I not under science stream
Then I end up at UCSI to study architecture
But since after I enter UCSI architecture, I feel my mind getting blurry and its does not feel good. I guess I been used to learn by observing for days, weeks, months and practical experience which is fun and free of mind without concern of deadline and others; no rushing, memorized or making model, Its just too fake and unproductive way to learn which make me suffer a lot, I want to explore more knowledge but always being stop by multiple deadline again and again. How can I learn freely by this stupid education system, sigh. I know that most how we work in future but …., sigh.
Good thing…. can’t remember much….. Too rushing ……Not enough time to feel deeply….. Friends….hard work…Nice model and design but still unable to make myself proud …. Too fake….. I not even know how the true feeling of my design if built in reality….. How can I be proud or even confident?
Explore slowly and more is my best yet worst habit, because I been train myself to do research like scientist when I was a gardener, Its not just find references or data that been done like lecture always used to ask but to discover by myself and fully understand as much as I can without any kind of aid, for example not just understand different behavior of plant, but how it response to other plant, soil, water, weather behavior. This habit are slow or ineffective in short term but effective in long term, its giving chance for myself to use my mind which gives me great knowledge and wisdom but bad marks for late submission.
Just want to discover more because it’s fun and might useful to help myself and others in future. I guess that what keep me to learn.
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