last letter 2 U

do u know, i was looking after u with excuse of extra study by attend the class of ur, n a lot n a lot of reasonable excuse i hv 4got, may b u never find out or may b u dun hv 2, just like always my love never reach any1 directly, I only can hope the knowledges i left on tis world can help u indirectly someday.

if someday, u face the same problem as I n u not willing 2 continue. u still can reverse the side effect by hv several day off, n do what u truly enjoy with all ur soul until u without realize the symptom of side effect been 4got. otherwise the side effect might getting permanent, wish u happy.

remember this is the only method, n it might hv some opposite effect.

the mind itself with similar method bring the side effect, either reverse or getting worse also find solution on mind with similar method. what ppl either call it focus behavior or meditation, it is somethg unavoidable n natural that every1 doing it without realize, so u dun hv 2 b afraid.

but u don hv get 2 serious bout it or spread it out carelessly, it one of the theory i made secretly, it may only being verify by others in future.